I am here to discuss a serious matter that has happened to me and have tried my best to find someone to help me and this is where Ive come.
I have this problem, which my family says its waswasa, and that problem is that whenever I recite the Quran I always think i have made a mistake and when I pray I forget if I did the 2 sujuud or said salam, and I also mix up in saying al tahiyat and sometimes forget what I said…And even during wudhu I always feel that i keep on breaking wind during wudhu and sometimes I forget if I have washed someparts, for example: sometimes i feel I forgot to wash my hands sometimes my face and so on and all this makes me keep on repeating the wudhu…
This matter has gone to such an extent that during a wudhu, I was trying to think of a way to stop all this, so during that wudhu i said: “I swear on Allah, if i repeat anything during this wudhu, Allah count me as a kafir” and at another time i made up another oath saying:” I swear on Allah, if i repeat the wudhu, Oh Angels jin and shayateen, count me as kaafir”… i thought these oaths will keep me scared from repeating wudhu, so I used the same oaths during prayer to keep me away from repeating the verses of the Quran again and again…It worked well until, at times i repeated the wudhu and at times i repeated the verses, I am scared if this oath has made me a kafir, I’m a pious Muslim and Momin and I pray to and worship Allah everyday , and my heart is strong with Iman.
I am really sad of what I have done, and Swore i won’t do these types of oaths,and again I say I am scared if this oath has made me a kafir, so this is why I try and contact you for an answer to this question, has this oath made me a kafir?
I would be very thankful for an answer.
Jazakum Allahu Khayran.
If possible, could you tell me of a way to stop repeating the wudhu due to the wind break feeling and forgetfullness and a way to stop the forgetfullness in salah and a way to stop the continious repeating of the ayas?.
Praise be to Allaah.
It makes no sense and it is not prescribed in Islam in any way to expose your religious commitment to the whispers (waswaas) of the Shaytaan so that he may toy with it as he wishes and make you mess about with your religious commitment like someone who is gambling by swearing oaths and making vows. Your religious commitment is too important and too precious for this kind of risky behaviour. Your enemy is lying in wait for you and seeks to instil in your heart his devilish whispers, doubts and bad thoughts, so as to distract you from worship and weaken your commitment to it. And he seeks to instill anxiety and distress in your heart. You have seen how you have ended up with his whispers (waswaas).
The matter is much more straightforward than that. A person’s act of worship cannot be ended or invalidated on the basis of mere uncertainty, let alone the waswaas that is attacking you, that is closer to being a sickness than wellbeing.
Shaykh al-Islam Ibn Taymiyah (may Allah have mercy on him) was asked: what if a person does wudoo’ and stands to pray, then feels some wetness (such as a drop of urine etc) whilst he is praying. Does that invalidate his prayer or not?
Merely feeling something does not invalidate wudoo’ and it is not permissible for him to exit an obligatory prayer on the basis of mere uncertainty. If he is certain that urine has been secreted to the outside of the penis, then his wudoo’ is invalidated and he has to wash himself (istinja’), unless he is suffering from urinary incontinence. But the prayer is not invalidated by a mere feeling, if he has done what is enjoined upon him.
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